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Lurking:
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shocking to nobody a'tall
2009-01-14

smug
2008-08-16

resurfacing
2008-06-30

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2007-06-06

not dead yet!
2006-09-20


...Storm's Lair...
...where God, Man, and Beast turn to whispered words and shadow-dark text...

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stress
2002-12-12 - 9:02 a.m.
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Went out for food with Grrr and her family, plus Joe and Jax and Nos-boy last night. Just Sharis nothing special....

Unfortunately I didn't have much fun because I was stressed out from dealing with Joe and watching Ehren.

Joe is at a point where he pretty much needs someone to lead him, and make him improve himself. I'm torn between taking the reigns myself and simply letting things lie... On the one hand, I'm a half-decent Dom and could probably make a positive difference quickly. On the other hand I'm not attracted to him and he's got a HUGE thing for me, which I dont want to get any more pronounced..... as much as Jax would probably get off watching me crack the (largely figurative) whip, I'm not sure I want to deal with it. On top of that I'm not sure how my housemates would take it if I started treating Joe like a little slaveboy, which is essentially what it would take, at least for now.

On top of that dilemma, Ehren is making me REALLY edgy. I've got something he can't have (Jax), and doesn't have a substitute for currently, and that always makes him get creepy. He has this obsessive need to either ruin my happyness or to swipe and/or drive off the person I'm attached to. He's gone into uber-Nosferatu overdrive lately and I'm really ready to f-ing kick his ass over it.... I don't KNOW that he's going to do anything but I'm getting the "evil used car salesman" feel off him again and I'm not taking chances.

In other news: when I'm not stressed out at one of more of my friends, I'm happier than I've been in a loooong time.



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