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Lurking:
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shocking to nobody a'tall
2009-01-14

smug
2008-08-16

resurfacing
2008-06-30

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2007-06-06

not dead yet!
2006-09-20


...Storm's Lair...
...where God, Man, and Beast turn to whispered words and shadow-dark text...

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I'm nuts.
2003-04-24 - 2:53 p.m.
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Just read a page on SI....

I can't explain how I feel in simple terms, but it's this slightly sick feeling one moment and a near overwhelming urge to beat the living daylights out of someone the next.

I think I know WHY I feel this way though.... after this long with Jax, an slap or bite or hair pull is an effectionate gesture as much as it is violent. I can't stand the thought of someone else harming the people I'm close to. My need to protect them as best I can is overwhelmin in many ways, but I can't stop them from hurting themselves.

Now I have an outlet for it. Directing the frustrations and hatred for an attacker into carefully disciplining my slavegirl helps HER by showing I care and taking care of some of her desire to get the pain out of her system, and it gives me something to lash out at and feel as if I'm helping to heal her and do some damage at the same time.

You never really notice when you loose your grip on normal reality. But sometime later you realize you're playing not playing with a full deck, and you're OK with that.



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